I wanted to be a monument but I guess I'm just a body

An attempt to understand and accept one's own body, to study the possibility of objectivity to the subjective, and to be someone who would create a monument of oneself.



"I had an idea about creating a monument.

I think I wanted to finish this Master program with a grand finale, and what better way than to create a statue of myself? Can I work with this project while forcing myself into a role play where I’m a narcissistic artistic genius with megalomania, thinking of herself as a revolutionary hero? If I was that kind of person, the monument would be a preparation for the future moment of grandness and fame, but also a symbol of hope for peace inside me, after so many years of civil war.
Why wait for when I’m dead until I receive my great appreciation and won’t be able to enjoy it? 

That seems boring to me. 

Why not start where it all ends? Why not make a monument by myself, of myself, with myself, for myself, and my possibly imaginary group of followers? I don’t know if I can, but I like the idea."

The things I could do, The things I should do, The things I try to do, The things I haven’t done (2020), p.3,Master Essay by Irina Laaja, Umeå Academy of Fine Arts, Umeå University



I wanted to be a monument but I guess I'm just a body, 2020
Self portrait photographs digitally printed on ecological cotton, polyester filling
97x95x180 cm
Installation view Bildmuseet Umeå, documentation photos by Heidrun Holzfeind


Fourteen parts of me, 2020
Kombucha SCOBY, linen thread, steel pipes, 173x74x43 cm
Installation view Bildmuseet Umeå, documentation photos by Heidrun Holzfeind